I fell for the craze on the WTE boards and bought myself a fetal heart doppler. I have no idea what I was catching when I used it the first few times (I'm guessing my own heart beat, even though it was reading pretty fast), but I found the baby well last night. Right smack dab in the middle below my belly button (I thought it was kind of weird to find the baby waaaaay off on my left side when I tried before). I think I could have sat and listened for hours and hours. We definitely have an active baby, as I was listening I could hear the baby's movement hit the probe of the doppler. Pretty sure every time I heard that, I giggled. :)
I'm still feeling a lot of emotions towards the unknown of this pregnancy. I know I don't want to spend the rest of the time afraid of everything I feel, but I can't shake it. I'm even having a hard time justifying twinges and pinches as something normal like round ligament pain. In addition, every time I feel something "leaking" below, I want to run to the bathroom to make sure I'm not bleeding again.
Really hopeful my OB can give me some reassurance tomorrow. I will be fine if I can't, but it would also be awesome if he said I was fine to have caffeine again. I was daydreaming of Caribou on my way to work today.
"In their hearts humans plan their course, but the Lord establishes their steps."